But during a visit to his family's home in Kimberley, Texas, Jimmy is savagely murdered in a bias attack. Wanting revenge and needing the solace and closure he never found after his first lover's death, Ian goes to Kimberley for Jimmy's funeral and the trial. Buffeted by the media that have descended to cover the sensational case, and regarded with suspicion and distaste by the town and by Jimmy's equally bereft parents, Ian is isolated and alone with his rage, sadness, and loss. That is, until he finds an unlikely ally in the person of Jimmy's beloved grandmother, Livie, a woman of great compassion and emotional fire, and with a secret history of her own.

All We Have Is Now is a moving and powerful novel of love and loss, of hate and understanding, of grief and resolution.

When a privileged young doctor falls in love with a handsome black man, he searches for the courage to follow his heart down an unexpected path, leaving behind a wife, children, and a promising political career. Can Dr. Brendan Garrison give up his white-bread world of servants, cocktail parties, and charity events for a future with Jonathan Miles? Can Jonathan leave the security of his job as church choir director to pursue his dream of singing opera? And can their love survive the stigma of homosexuality and the oppression of subtle racism that is still very much part of society? Whose Eye Is On Which Sparrow? reaches across the boundaries of class, culture, race, and sexuality to tell the story of the difficult choices that sometimes complicate a simple love.

Brendan hadn't been confronted with many ultimatums in his life. Most things had just fallen into his lap. Medical school, the one he wanted. Sandra. The kids. Success. An enormous house and a fancy car. Maybe this strange new desire would be the same. Maybe it would slide easily into that long chain of gifts from a benevolent ... No. Oh, no. It wasn't God who was tempting him this way. Forget that. He stretched again. Watched the sky, felt helpless. He did know one thing for sure: all this was no whim. No passing fancy that would fade as suddenly as it had appeared. No. It was welling up from someplace deep inside him. And he had no idea where it might take him.

But as he struggles to balance the responsibilities and demands of being a husband, healer, father, son, lover, and friend, Brendan is forced to make hard choices that will forever change his life and the lives of everyone he loves. His unexpected love for Jonathan has turned his well-ordered world upside down, shaking loose new feelings about what he believes—and what he believes in.

"There are some things I know about love, and one of them is this: If it's going to last, mean something, it can't be just a romantic fantasy. The kind we've been playing at. You can't keep it tucked away in a little compartment and bring it out only on special occasions. When you've got time for it. It has to be out there all the time, gaining strength, so it can survive the harsh realities it's bound to bump up against, day after day. It has to—or it will die."

From author Robert Taylor, whose All We Have Is Now remains one of the most popular books ever offered by the InsightOut® Book Club, Whose Eye Is On Which Sparrow? strikes just the right balance between head and heart as its characters struggle to find the courage to give up the lives they have for the lives they want.